Feeling Better

Following the advice of my technician, I've set aside everything until the drugs take effect. I'm sober now, for the first time in years, and dealing with the nightmares. The smell of gasoline still fills my mouth with the sickly sweet taste of burnt pork. Stepping into the hot shower still gives me audio and sensory and smell hallucinations.

But I'm starting to feel better. The homicidal impulses are easier to control and happen with less frequency.

I know I should be working harder to clear my plate, but to be honest, I just need some breathing room, just for a week or two, to catch my balance.

But, I've got the forums up and running for right now, good enough.
I've almost got the cover complete to the magazine.
I've written 25,000 words in the last week on Mother Damnation Vol II.

So, I guess I need to slack off like that.

But I'm still having impulses to murder and maim. I still have to be supervised at all times.

But I'm getting better.